Week 17

Today was another doc visit. I seem to be living one visit to another and holding my breath in between, in the fear that everything will go wrong....!! But the fear is hard to overcome, though with time it seems to be weaning and a sense of positive thought and feeling of sharing with other people and the excitment is taking shape.

The vitals for this week are:

My blood pressure 116/78
wt 131 lbs
fetal BPM 145

these are the only reassurances I have of that things are progressing on schedule.

Also, had the blood drawn for the AFP triple screening and cystic fibrosis test. Am a little concerned about hearing the results of these. Hope and pray that they are normal. Have read and heard that there is a chanc eof false positives which could lead to further detailed testing, really hope and pray that I do not have to get into that and that everything comes out normal.

The doctor has given the referal for the detailed ultra sound now. So will schedule that in a couple of weeks, perhaps the first week of April.

14 weeks 1 day

So I am pregnant, and anxious and excited and scared and happy and terrified and hopefull and confused and ........

Today it is 14 weeks 1 day....DD is 17 Aug which is also DH's b-day....

I have been scared to acknowledge and write about this till now. I have wanted to document this whole experience all along but have kept off it. Just thinking that I could stay detached....I have suffered loss....last year...an early miscarriage. So am very scared and anxious in this one. I am past the mark of last time though.

I have seen the ultrasound at 8 weeks and heard the heart beat at 12 weeks. It was a swishing sound at 130 BPM. The normal range is supposed to be 120-160. The doctor thinks everything is normal so far. But I keep freaking out. Now that I am past the nausea and extreme fatigue stage, I feel I need to know something to reassure me that things are going well. I get lot of gas and burp a lot. Also, have started getting pressure headaches since past 3 days. have taken Tylenol twice so far.

Only the immediate family and Nanz know about it so far. And the exciting part is that N is 8 weeks into it too.....Am really excited about going through this time with her along. Am praying that things can work out well for both of us.